Dec 02 2009
Oh, unhappy day!! :-(
Erlend and Elspeth are away to Aberdeen so our peedie bairn can be checked for epilepsy at the Children’s Hospital. Being pregnant makes me soooo hormonal that I’m like a coo looking for her calf! And the thought of my wean and my husband on a plane… yeah, it’s not as if the plane wouldn’t crash if I was there but that’s my main worry. So I told Erlend to call me as soon as he gets to Aberdeen so I can breathe a sigh of relief.
My poor Elspethy! She has to have brain scans and heart scans and blood tests with needles! But she’s with daddy and she adores daddy and Erlend is a fantastic father so that brings me endless comfort. 
It’s easier when we drop her off at her godparents’ house and go somewhere ourselves because we’re so distracted. To be left behind uuuugh! But even when me and Erlend are off to Aberdeen ourselves for appointments we still get depressed and miss our baby!
While my wee family is gone I’m going to try and get some decluttering done around this hoose. But my heart is really strained with this twins pregnancy and now it’s gotten to the point where the least exertion on my part sets it off. I’ve been assured that it’s not dangerous ~ but it certainly is exhausting and I end up in bed gasping, short of breath, and feeling like death warmed over.
I’m certain I can at least get the clutter cleared off of the kitchen counter. I’ve done that before without too much complaint from my heart. Erlend kindly picked everything, every toy, every baby book, every anything off of the kitchen and livingroom floors and set them onto higher places so I can put stuff away without having to bend over. Which really sets my heart off! (Not to mention my furious pelvis.)
I’m due for a c-section at the end of January but I will not complain if my body decides to show these twins the door a bit earlier! But only as long as it’s safe. The twins are doing VERY well: Big, robust, healthy. But it feels as if my own body is getting more and more trashed as each day passes. I try not to stress it but it’s rough being crippled, in excrutiating pain 24 hours a day, with a crazy heart to put the icing on the cake! It’s not dangerous etc etc etc… I know. It’s easy for medical folk to be relaxed but that’s because they are on the outside of all this physical crap!! The heart issue is genetic and runs right through my mother’s side of the family like a wide river. I made it to 28 before I felt anything. For a while there I thought I had escaped!! But nope. I guess you can’t run from genetics haha! (Turns out the pelvis thing is probably genetic too. Mom had issues, couldn’t get me out and I was only 6 pounds vs. Elspeth’s robust 8 pounds. I have other relatives that couldn’t get their kids oot either. Their pelvises just plain wouldn’t open up and were shaped kinda funny. My Aunt Diane is adament that my pelvis is TINY. But I’ve been buxom for so long I forgot that yes, I was a very slight girl with absolutely no curves. “A male pelvis” as our community midwife commented. “Yes.” I told her. “Even when I’d wear pink and have fingernail polish … I’d be called ‘young man’!!”)
I don’t look young man now! I look like a buxom pregnant lady with a delightfully matronly figure! How fun to have children even if pregnancy totally SUCKS.
I miss my wean already. And my mellow, easy-going-even-with-a-pregnant-hormonal-wife husband! They’ll be back in twelve lonnnnng hours. Hopefully I can get something done around here so the downstairs at least looks decent. Just in time for Elspethy to rip it apart again hahahaha!!
Cheers!
4 responses so far
Just enjoy your day off, Moo. You won’t get many of those for a while
Hope elspeth will be fine as jill says ,relax,as when you’ll be running after three kids you’ll be wishing for some “me time”
I hope all goes well with your daughter and you get some much needed relief on the pregnancy side too.
I think I speak for some of us on IB –have you had the results of Elspeths tests yet??They seem to be taking their time,or no doubt you are too tired to let us know